I have let it stop me from ordering what I really want, fearful that the person behind me in line would judge me for my order, thinking I am too fat to eat that.
I have let it keep me home in fear of going out to a party, event or whatever else and not having food that fit my diet or my macros available.
I have let it stop me from enjoying that meal or drink or piece of cake.
How sad is that.
I am done doing that.
As most of you know, I am on my postpartum journey. I am almost 2 months postpartum. I am struggling with my thyroid again (I have Hashimoto’s and hypothyroidism). I haven’t lost any weight in weeks. I have lost inches which I am happy with. I have counted calories and worked with my macros. I am also working out with Beachbody and currently doing Transform 20. I am trying to be more conscious of what I am eating and not eating junk food.
All of that is great. It is.
You know what is better?
I went out to eat with family and ordered what I wanted instead of getting the high protein meal.
I ate 2 snow cones this week and got an amazing frozen coffee and felt no guilt.
I couldn’t fit what we were having for dinner for my husbands birthday into my macros today and you know what? I ate it anyways. I enjoyed a burger and had a piece of cake.
I didn’t miss out on life. Memories. Time with family.
I also ate my feelings yesterday when my kids wouldn’t nap, I was exhausted and the day seemed it would never end.
I also ate my feelings yesterday when my kids wouldn’t nap, I was exhausted and the day seemed it would never end.
Does it mean I’ll gain weight? Does it mean I lost sight of my goals?
No.
What it means is I am human. I know I am not going to go the rest of my life without a burger. I am not going to ever permanently remove a food from my diet. I am not going to hit my calorie range or macros goal every single day. I am still going to keep going for my goal. Is that a number on the scale? A size? No. It’s when I feel healthy and fit. Comfortable in my skin.
Right now- this is my body. This is where I am on this journey. I will embrace it and keep moving forward. I won’t feel guilty for enjoying life.
One time a person who I love dearly told me she missed out on so much in life because of her weight and wanting to avoid going out at that size or the temptation of food. She said if she could go back again, the things she would do! Don’t be that person. Be human. Enjoy life. Just find a balance with that and your goals.
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