Still struggling..... but still trying

Well, I started doing Insanity about a month ago. I hate to say it, but I have not lost a pound. The weekends are hard to deal with and lately I have been going out of town a lot. I know, NO EXCUSES. I could do better and I will. This is just a hard time right now, but I will make it through it. I have heard a lot of people say that they lose more in the 2nd month of Insanity, so we will see. I still jog a couple times a week and I still count calories. I have been thinking about trying out weight watchers again. It's been a long time since I have done that and maybe it's time to change it up. The key is to never stop trying. Keep working out, keep making better, healthy choices and eventually we can all get there! :)

I am back... after a LONG break! and the weight is back too!

After summer school ended and I actually was OFF work, I left this blog behind and took a break from it all. I had a great summer planned and I knew that although I still worked out and tried not to eat like complete crap, that I was probably going to cheat and drink and eat more than I should. It was great to just be able to enjoy life and live. I went on a trip to Vegas in mid July and I had still maintained my weight up to that point and actually after getting back. Then, I was hit with a bomb. My grandfather was put in the hospital in ICU and we were unsure of what was going to happen, at times we were even afraid he might not make it. During stressful times like that, you would think we would not be able to eat, but when you are sitting in a waiting room staring at the wall- eating sounds like a great break from that. That brought back 5 lbs and put my back up to about 170. Am I disappointed? Yes. Do I know that life happens and sometimes you can't always worry about your weight? YES. I will get back on track and even do better this time. I have faith in myself. I actually bought INSANITY. Yes, I think I may be insane for doing it. I did the first day on Saturday and could not walk correctly for about 3 days. My calves felt like they were going to fall off and hurt SO BAD. Yesterday I did it again and it was easier. Just like anything, if you put your mind to it- you can do it. I am hoping to see amazing results from it and will post before and after pics once I complete the 60 day challenge. :) Hopefully I don't die in the process of it all, because it is a brutal workout and Shaun T makes you feel like you might just fall over and stop breathing. It will be worth it though :) So, here I am- back on track with eating right and working out. We will see how this adventure goes.

STUPID, ANNOYING PLATEAU!

I HAVE! I am lingering around 164 and the scale is not moving! NOT AT ALL! (It makes me so mad!) I have been working out 5-6 days a week, alternating between circuit training and running and it still is NOT MOVING! I have been watching my food intake and alcohol as well (really hard to do with it being summer time!) I am trying hard not to get discouraged. I am goign to keep going, maybe change it up a bit, add more calories then take some away. There is no exact science to weight loss (unfortunately- but whoever makes a skinny pill one day will be a RICH woman!!!) It's not easy and this week has been very discouraging, but I know if I keep going, keep trying, it will MOVE one day- sooner than later I hope! I can't give up and neither should you!

It's not all about being SKINNY!

This is so true! Just a couple days ago, an older fried of my family's had a heart attack. It made me stop and think. Exercise is not just about being skinny, it's not about how you look in a bikini, if you have cellulite, if you like the number on the scale or not. It is about being HEALTHY! It is about wanting to live a long life, be there for your kids, your grandkids.... it is about making better choices, feeding your body what it needs instead of what you crave. I want to live a long time. I haven't even gotten married or had kids yet. I have a lot to live for. I want to make better choices so that I will be here 20, 30, 40, 50 years from now. Every day we make choices. Unfortunately for our friend, he chose to eat unhealthy foods, smoke daily, and drink too much. This caused 100% blockage and a heart attack, followed by emergency surgery. I hope it opens his eyes to what life is all about. Just like if you mistreat material things, they will break- same with our bodies... if we abuse them and fill them with bad things and never exercise, what do you expect to happen? I am making a promise to myself today to make healthier choices for my future. :) Health is really important. What do you think?

It's been ALMOST a MONTH! oopsy!

May was a very busy month for me. I had all kinds of things going on at work (I am a teacher), I had my birthday, I went on that trip to Canton, and Memorial Day weekend of course. It was busy and I didn't always do my best with eating and drinking. I had a great time though and I have maintained my weight. This summer my big plans are to keep it going and for sure maintain, if not lose some more of this jiggle before I go on the trips I hope to have planned. It's all about moderation. You can eat or drink anything in moderation. It is also important to keep going! Dont' give up and let yourself go, because you think "what's the point?". That's how we all end up fatter than we want to be in the first place. Keep trying, make better choices, remember moderation, and always exercise- if not for the sake of being skinny, then for the sake of your health. It makes you feel amazing as well. Fingers crossed this will be the first summer that I don't end up looking like a beached whale! hehe

Live life :)

I always feel like I never have time to write on this blog and when I do- I write about success AND failure... lol, oh well, such is life! I went out of town over the weekend, a little mother- daughter time. We went to the big flea market they have in Canton, Texas once a month. If you have never been, it is a MUST- they have GREAT stuff! I love going! Anyways, when we left on Friday I stepped on the scale and I was at 162.8. I was happy with that. I knew this trip would be a challenge and I knew I would probably fall off the diet train, but I was hoping the walking that we were going to do would offset some of what I was about to eat. So, on our way out we stopped to get breakfast at McDonald's. Yes, I know- bad choice, but there are all these itty bitty towns on our route and the choices are very limited. Anyways, I chose a sausage egg mcgriddle. I though "how many calories can that possibly have?". WRONG! They have 560 calories! No wonder America is FAT. Anyways, I ate it- I was starving by this point. Vowed to never make that mistake again for a long time. Hey, sometimes you gotta eat bad things, live a little. Anyways, we shopped all day- 6 hours of walking to be exact- which burns a lot of calories (something like over 1,000). My mom and I split a cheeseburger, which was literally so small it was like the size of the palm of my hand and had a few fries. That night was feast night- we split chicken fajitas and had a margarita in honor or the upcoming Cinco de Mayo holiday- ok maybe just because we wanted one! hehe! It was a bad meal, but I was SO FREAKIN hungry after walking all day, I know I burned that McDonald's off plus some! The next day we headed back out and had breakfast at the hotel. I had yogurt, eggs, one biscuit and one small muffin. Nothing too serious and it was yummy! We did 4 hours of walking this day and we snacked on fried pies (I know, it's getting worse and it's not over yet), but that line was the only short one (darn the luck!) LOL.. they were delicious, but that is all we ate for lunch. By the time we got close to home that night we were both hungry. I got coconut shrimp and a baked potato- which I did not eat most of because it wasn't that great. The shrimp were great though and I did eat those! We also split a carrot cake. So, all in all I had a horrible eating weekend. It happens sometimes, at least in my world. I was fully prepared to come back and weigh in at 170! BUT, guess what? That walking helped, sweating in the hot Texas heat was good and I only weighed in at 164! WOW! A whole 1.2 lbs of weight gain for a GREAT weekend and a little indulgence. You have to do it sometimes. What I do know is I have to work hard this week and get back on track- which I have been doing, eating better and the workout and running begins again today. Everything is good in moderation- I don't eat like that all the time, hardly ever really... so I am happy and I had a great weekend and my goal is still in sight! 9 lbs to go!

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Small success!

So, yesterday morning, I wasn't too happy when I jumped on the scale. It said 164.8. Yep, I still gained 1 pound over the weekend, even though I was good with eating and working out. I wasn't GREAT with it all, but I was really good. I watched my portions, did not drink alcohol at all, and worked out Friday and Sunday. I was a little discouraged, but then fellow blogger Mama Laughlin told me- baby steps! At least I didn't gain the weekend normal of 3 pounds. SO TRUE! It is a small victory. Usually after I gain those 3 lbs, it takes me the whole week to get back down to normal (163-164ish). This morning I saw this- yep, 163.4- WOO HOO! If I can have a really good week, then maybe I can use a few pounds. Challenges this week- I am going to a workshop today, which means eating out. I am also heading out of town Friday with my mom, so I will not be able to workout Friday or Saturday. I hope I can maintain this weight, if not lose something this week. Thinking positive! :)

P.S. Sorry for the fat feet, I broke my toe this weekend, so one foot is slightly swollen... good news, I can still run! yay!